Twmpyn’s blog

Originally published at Crashing Silence Blog. You can comment here or there.

I have thought about shutting down my blog, or just keeping it here as a record- but over the last few weeks, I've been feeling the need to post.

I have not had that feeling for a while- I blame a number of things, not that I want to discuss them all in detail: twitter, an ongoing battle with depression, life changes in my extended family and friends. I've not wanted to discuss them in a public forum, or elude to them in hushed tones.

Over the last few weeks, I have been feeling slightly better. So I have begun to look at a shift in priorities, the support of new friends and the input of new ideas helps. As does the kind words of more established friends- even if they are not so sure where I am going with this.

So no obligation, no promises, no timetable, no arbitrary goals- but it's time to begin a shift in priorities.

Do you own all the albums of any particular musical artist or group? Who?

Submitted by dutterman.

george- my favourite brisband, they got me through 5 years in Mt Isa and still warm my heart

Gg

They are curently on break, but vocalist Katie Noonan has the No1 Australian album this week.

What do you have, what do you need and what do you want?
Submitted by Miss Scotch.

1. a wonderful husband
2. more time to be creative
3. a child- let's not go into the detail, I've been over it a thousand times

What decision changed the course of your life? 
Submitted by Ally.

I'm back doing vox stuff intermittently until I work out my blogging life. To answer the question, about 5 years ago I went to the doctor for the third time about a persistnet cough that was keeping me awake at night. I'd been through three lots of antibiotics and was feeling awful.

It had been a very stressful time- I'd just got married, had lost a student in awful circumstances and work was tough.

After a chest x-ray the doctor told me to pack my bags because I would be on the first flight out of town to the capital for tests. He told me it was serious, but we would know more after I had an echo cardiogram and ultrasound.

Two days later- I was told I had cardiomyopathy and would have to be hospitalized until it was stabilized. My husband flew 1000kms to be with me and I was in hospital for a week.

It seems I'll be medicated for the rest of my life- however, had I not gone back to the doctor, I mightn't be alive.

I'm not advocating giving up chocolate for Easter, but this was one of my best Easter treats. 1kg of starburst

I had a pretty full on day today. So when went to woolies I spoilt myself - it's funny how the little things can make you feel better.

My baby bro entertaining my girls

Just a quick note to say- happy birthday to me.

I've had a good day, despite my cold and sinus. I scored some good booty- including my choice of 'the box' which was a pair of peridot, amethest and gold earrings. I really should post a pic...

Also got a League of Gentleman shirt (thanks Franki!!), a huge collection of shells from my Mum, some Muse cds, and the latest Neil Gaiman.

The plan was to go out to dinner tonight, but as I'm sniffly and can't really taste food- BMB rustled up a feast of sweet potato soup, roast lamb on pea mash and chocolate mousse with berries. We watched 'Colour Me Kubrick" and are about to take some anithistames and fall into bed.

Thanks to all for their love and best wishes.

..................and weekend hijinx.

I had an early birthday on Sunday- BBQ and cake with the inlaws. I got some lovely loot- gorgeous glasses and some new earrings. I ate too much again, and had some lovely champagne.

Today I went to the cardiologist. She's confirmed what the radiographer and GP had said, the drugs are working and my heart function has doubled. That's close to normal. the bad news is that she's not going to change my medication for 6 months to give me a chance to lose weight and take the strain off my heart.

However, it's a start. Meanwhile, somehow I've acquired a cold that's making me feel a might peculiar and downright ill.

nstead of doing our usual brooding and planning for the first term of school BMB and I have been social. For the public holiday yesterday, we went to Doug's- BBQ'd steak and talked computer, comics and all manner of nerdy things with some of his mates. Then we were even more nerdy and went to GOMA to see the final Beyond Anime session. It wasn't as good as the before anime exhibition, but I was excited to see the work of Kuroska- because I had heard about him and was excited about his use of photocopy technique. 20 minutes of his program was quite interesting- but the last half hour was tedious and became boring. I was very disappointed.

Nat has been our film companion the last few weeks. She came out last night and today we flew into town to see The Fountain with her. It was quite good- I don't know what I was expecting, but I liked it. There were parts I found overwhelmingly depressing, but like What Dreams May Come, there were uplifting moments that made it bittersweet.

We are so social and outgoing- we're even going out to Sunday brekky with Kate tomorrow and maybe another movie. For the last few weeks - this could be my dream life. So why do I have to go back to work?